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Whenever people ask me about marriage, I laugh. I laugh so hard till I can't breath. And my tears running along. Was it a post-childhood trauma?

I just don't believe in it. How am I suppose to know he's the one? I have plenty of depressions and problems, can he stand me? Can he? He'll grew tired of me. And my temper. And my problems.

I don't even know if I sincerely love someone, if I like him. Will it be temporary? Can he accept my family? Can he love me more than I love him? Can he take a good care of me even I don't need it? Can he make me laugh till my heart burst?

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Umi.. decided to sleep on the couch tonight, "I'm making use of him?!" she cried, repeatly saying those words with frustration.