It's been 3 weeks now I'm in this posting. I learnt so many things, new things ! One thing out of so many things that I learnt was, not all psychiatric patient is a lunatic, or crazy people. Yes, some of them might be crazy, diagnosed with certain types of mental disorders. But, there are also patient that suffering from personality disorders. Now, this is hard to see in the ward, I've never met these kind of people yet. I has only seen patient who'd been diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. 

Believe me, it was really one new experience for me to encounter these patients. I get to learn what lead them to be like that. How things can become worst if you're didn't seek for help earlier. I see it all there. I feel sorry for the patient. Most of them said that they were unhappy because their family didn't come to visit them. Hmm. 

I really love this posting, maybe because of the lecturer? I really, really love Prof Nawan's style of teaching. He taught us in a 'sempoi' and very 'santai' way. He'll make sure all of us understand. So many jokes, funny moments and laughter shared together in a small room, at the 3rd level of Lincoln's building, opposite The Royal Ward bulding of HRPZII. 



So every posting will always has an end posting exam before shifted to another postings (Duhhh, the name itself obviously state it's meaning?). Hmm. So many things to catch up and so many things to read. Exam is around the corner. You gotta memorize the DSM-5 diagnostic criteria for certain important diseases. Sighhh. 

LINCOLN UNIVERSITY COLLEGE, KELANA JAYA

They said, one of us has failed the end posting exam in previous posting; Family Medicine & Community Medicine. I was so scared as the questions a bit tough for me as I didn't actually pay attention to the subjects. It was a very boring course/subject. I even accidentally slept for an hour in one of the classes, and guess what? That's the one that came out in the exam. In the SEQ part. I'm so dead !
Oh, well.  
Doakan yuyu dan rakan rakan pass with flying colours in last end posting examination! And then we all can say goodbye to Year 3, and HELLO YEAR 4 ! 2 MORE YEARS TO GO.

T H E . M O O DS

I was looking outside of the window. Langit mendung today, semendung hati aku. Hahahaha. Well, fortunately there was no train that time, kalau tak memang beratur sepanjang panjang jalan besar tu untuk masuk ke dalam bandar Tanah Merah. Was I expecting too much from my result? No, hell no. I knew I did bad in my MEQ. I score too low for that questions part. Why I felt so frustrated? I kept thinking why I deserve that kind of grade. I got C. 58%. Another 2% to get B. If I score 2% in that MEQ part, I might got B for my surgical posting. I was so sad, because it was my favourite posting. I did well in my long cases, practical of course. I didn't score for my theories part. I'm such a fool. Lacking in theories part as always. C is for those people who can't balance between theories and practicals. B is for someone who can balance, and A.. maybe that someone have extra somewhere.


Was it because people put high hopes on me. Telling me how good I am at studying, and then BOOM! I just couldn't meet their expectations. I feel worst. I don't know why. Nina comforts me, saying it's okay. This is our first posting. Keep up the good work. Try to balance both theories and practical. My confident drop to the lowest level it can be. (sigh)

And now, our current posting quite tough. We're dealing with kids and had to become smart enough to tackle the patient's interest. We are in paediatric posting, but it's the same as taking internal medicine except it is for children, little adults they said. hmm. I hope this posting lights my path and I could gain my confident level back, In Shaa Allah :)

You can try google up how to boost your confident level back. This might help : How To Build Self Confidence

This was from Forbes

So how do we boost our confidence when we need it most? Here are a few strategies: